I had been producing a series of works which I entitled my 'Disaster Series' - a bit of a nod to Andy Warhol. This was a summation of my then current mental state and how the outside world in general appeared to me. But while I was in the process of doing 'The Wizard, (ATU V - The Hierophant)', my Disaster Series suddenly came to an end when I realized that the energy wanting to come through was decidedly positive and that unbeknownst to myself, I had entered a new phase.
The Wizard was a pivotal work of dual powers. I had always been fascinated by death, as I still am, and Andy Warhol's depictions of the electric chair is a personal 'Grim Reaper'. I wanted to show that the Spirit rises above material death, and to do this I tried to create an image of a being literally floating over the scene of certain death. The picture became a 'glyph' for beyond disaster but was also the first stepping stone of the next phase, my latest works - 'Beyond Disaster'.
Working on this picture definitely released a new wave of creativity which has given rise to all these latest paintings. In them, I am tackling issues I don't feel I have fully understood throughout my life, although they have all been constant companions. I keep on thinking I have finished with the completion of each new picture and each one's finishing is accompanied by candid meditation on whether the latest will be my last. So far, this hasn't happened, as at the moment I am working towards finishing another. I do know that somewhere in all this, I am desperately searching into my past for a time that I felt secure. I don't know if I will find it, but it keeps me searching, I may even end up at a present or future time where I feel secure. I do know that somewhere I'd like to arrive and stay at Coleridge's description:
‘Weave a circle round him thrice,
And close your eyes with holy dread,
For he on honey-dew hath fed,
And drunk the milk of Paradise.’